I'm Falling Apart
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Had the usual weekend night...spent it at Leah's watching movies. We ordered veggie pizzas and parked our kiesters in front of her brand new state of the art 51 inch widescreen television. First we watched The 5th Element, because, frankly, we both wanted to see it again. Then, for some stupid reason we decided to watch What Lies Beneath. I swear it's the stupidest movie ever. Now, most of you know it takes a lot to scare me, and there is only one movie that I can't stand to watch (Ghost--I even refused to watch it for a project in high school). WLB didn't even phase me, in fact, I was trying to not fall asleep half way through.

For those of you in the know, I did manage about 6 hours of sleep last night, but that occurred after 3 a.m. They might have to put me on a new type of pain medication--because celebrex isn't always working. The scary thing is that a new exercise I got from my PT doesn't even phase me. Jerry told me that I should be in pain when I tense the toes (because it hurts him when he does this particular exercise), but I don't feel ANYTHING. It just feels like I'm tensing up my foot, and moving it. I think that it slightly alarmed him yesterday, because he was like: You're holding that in that position for awhile, isn't it even cramping? Nope, it didn't cramp, or hurt, or anything--I know I held it in that position for over a minute, too. I actually wanted it to hurt--I hate being sick.

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The sad thing is that I was a fairly healthy child. I have always had allergies, but rarely needed anything more than a decongestant or some benadryl gel. Then, my senior year of high school I was ordered to have absolutely no caffeine, because it was affecting my heart rate, and causing my heart to palpitate. A couple days after h.s. graduation I ended up with tonsillitis. My freshman year of college I had the stomach flu so bad I had to stay at my parents to recuperate for 3 days. Then in 2001 I had a wisdom tooth pulled. I was put on penicillin, but didn't have a problem. In 2002, I needed another wisdom tooth pulled, was put on penicillin, but had a major allergic reaction and missed a couple days of student teaching. Later in 2002 I started to feel miserable, so I went to the doctor. She put me on a new type of allergy medicine, clarinex, and instructed me to take some antibiotics with it, because they thought I had an infection. In the summer of 2003, I had my 3rd and last wisdom tooth pulled and was given vicadin, which contains codeine. I got so sick off of the codeine that I ended up pulling out stitches as I vomited. Fun, let me tell you. Over labor day weekend of 2003 is when I stress fractured my ankle, in apparently TWO locations just by exercising. I was told to do RICE, and was put into a brace and ace wrap. I was still in pain, but didn't want to be thought of as a baby because I couldn't handle pain. In October 2003, allergies got worse, was put on flonase with the clarinex and was diagnosed with rhinitis with post nasal drip. About that same time I scratched my right eye with my hard contacts and was going back and forth to the eye doctor every week for about 6 weeks. Then, I was having sinitus headaches, so I was instructed to spray saline solution up my nose in the mornings and nights. In November I got my new soft contacts, since I was ordred to never wear hard ones again (wich is nice, considering they feel SO much better). In December of 2003, ankle was hit with a beer bottle at a DB concert-- didn't think anything of it. A week later my foot started to hurt--ignored it until January 2004. February-March 2004--taken many, many X-rays, a bone scan, an MRI, have seen a podiatrist (Doc Pike), a PT (Jerry) and a pain management specialist (A scary dude) and I was officially diagnosed with the beginning stages of RSD. April--still seeing Doc Pike and Jerry.

Until recently, I was fairly healthy...and then they wonder why I've been saying that:

"I feel like I'm falling apart."