If I Could Hold Time in a Bottle

Seriously, in the past month since I started my job, I can't tell you how little time I've had. There are items I should have done that haven't been done for weeks. Of course, some of that is due to a few bumps in the road.

I didn't expect my friends husband to die so suddenly, but I was sad. Did I go see her? No, I was at my university homecoming when I found out when the arrangements were. I wouldn't have gotten home on that Sunday until possibly 11 p.m. And, since I couldn't get out of work on Monday I decided to sends some cards with the intent on actually sending the card. That was nearly two weeks ago--the cards are still on our desk.

I feel horrible, but I'm having a hard time actually sending the cards. What does one say? "Oh, I'm sorry your husband died. Haven't seen you in a long time. Take care."? Ugh, I over analyze everything.

I've also been working on my thesis a little bit. How bad is it that I just want to be done with it and am writing to get it done just to be done?

I've decided that the Ph.D. will be in creative writing. I LOVE creative writing. I have a ton of stories and poems. I LOVE writing, although I'm not good at it. I love it. Literature is great, too, but it's not my life's ambition.

Mostly, I miss school. I want to be in class learning. True, I learn at my job, but for the most part, it's pretty rudimentary. I'm almost like a computer--or a machine--while I'm at work.

I get paperwork. I process paperwork. I get more paperwork.

Fun! Not.

However,I think it's great practice for reminding myself why I want to get my Ph.D. someday and why I don't want to work in a desk job for the rest of my life.

Oh! And, I started Weight Watchers with some of my buddies at work. I've lost about 5 lbs so far and I'm 1.5 weeks into the program. Not doing too bad, eh?! Mostly what I've learned is that I was definitely NOT portioning out my meals correctly, nor was I eating enough of the good thing. A measuring cup will do wonders when you're dieting. 1/2 Cup of mashed potatoes is NOT what you think it is.