Who Gave Away My Stupid Pills?

When I'm happy, I call/visit people and talk. When I'm bitchy I write about it on here; so, bear with me. I started writing this Thursday, then thought I would trash it, but I think it would do me good to see it in writing because I tried to go back to the board and it just pissed me off again. This way, by getting my thoughts and feelings out, I can bury the hatchet. Warning--you guys know me, I usually don't cuss, but I was very angry the other night, so cuss words are embedded! If you're a first time reader (I get about 6 of you a day) this is not a normal post.

WHO GAVE AWAY MY FUCKING STUPID PILLS? I mean seriously, who gave them to most of the DB board? Those pills are reserved for my clumsy days, or no-common-sense days. Why did all of the Dierksville posters get bashed when we had nothing to do with what else was going on? I don't appreciate being called a "glorified chatter" because I choose to post in the Dierksville forum.

Here's my post from Angie's in the Dierksville forum to Matt:

You're right, Matt...I guess I needed someone to talk sense into me. I'm pretty much feeling how you felt yesterday. I guess I'm just upset because I feel that we're getting blasted for something that we as Dierksville posters have no control over.

I have never purposefully written anything bad about anyone or anything on this board because I've been taught that you catch more flies with honey rather than vinegar. When I had a problem, I took it to email, so as not to air my dirty laundry in public. The behavior right now looks very bad for any guest who may come to our lovely abode or for our great providers of the board.

I'm not a person who gives up easily. This last year, especially the past six months, have been hard on me--but I have never given up. In fact, I'm fighting very hard right now to get my life back on track. So, I'm not going to give up on the board, either.

I know we all have opinions and I greatly value differing opinions. Like I said before, I felt attacked. Some of you may not agree with me, but it is my opinion. I just thought that leaving would be the best for me, but now I see it is not. The best thing I can do is support Dierks and still stay here and talk with my friends. I don't have to read the posts that upset me--I can just stay here talking with my friends, Brandi, Matt, and Stacey, and anyone else who decides to stop by!

I definitely don't want to give up the great friendships I've made on this board. Many of you I talk to everyday, either on the phone or Internet. Some posters I have met in person and we had a great time. Yes, I know that some have left us over the past couple of months, and I still talk to them, too.

I was brutally honest in that post. I DO value other's opinions (ask my uncle, he's a Bush supporter while I'm a liberal). I have never purposefully hurt anyone on the board, nor have I name called (which was fucking childish), berated, made fun of (Brandi the exception--but it's all in fun), or dissed another poster. And, most importantly, I have never started a fight because I could. So, why are some posters doing this to me?

Yes, people were mad on the board, and they might have had a reason to be--I am removed from the situation b/c I don't choose to post in those topics. But, when those posters know that nothing can be done until morning, why did they decide to blast the rest of us there--especially those of us who had no relation to what was going on? I'm happy to be a Dierksville poster, but don't blast me when I have nothing to do with your fucking problem.

Also, I'm sick and tired of hearing about people getting special treatment over others. Face it, it's just a part of life. However, did we not think that possibly there is a reason some people get special treatment over others? Maybe, just maybe, they are given special treatment because they are friends with/talk to/worked with or for/helped the people in charge? So, suck it up.