I feel like I'm going through a mid-life crisis, and I'm freaking only 23 years old. I'm not sure what I want to do with my life as far as a career goes, but I know that I can't find it here in Iowa while teaching. I feel like I'm turning into someone that I don't want to be.

I guess I get tired of the monotony of teaching. Getting up at 6 to be at school around 7:30 teach and have practices until around 5 at night, ball games/meets/contests until 9 p.m. and Saturdays. I have no time for a life, much less a life with anybody else. Even when I'm online, I'm usually looking up things for school, like contest sites, or finding monologues. Or, I just have the Internet on, so noone will call (my cell doesn't always come in at my house) and bug me. Don't get me wrong, I like working with kids, but I'm not sure that I want to do this forever.

I know how the policy goes. I am given one life, and one life to make my dreams come true.

Now, I just need to decide how I want to do it.