Here are all the posts from my old site. Enjoy!! My songs and photo's will remain on those other pages for now. If you want to check them out go to http://www.angelfire.com/ia2/tonidianehoffmeier2


12/02/03... This should explain it all...

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category Your Score Average
Self-Lovin' 63.3%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh 65%
Shamelessness 69%
It takes a couple of drinks 79.3%
Sex Drive 78.9%
The Pope is envious 77.7%
Straightness 17.9%
Knows the other body type like a map 44.9%
Gayness 100%
83.3%
Fucking Sick 89.4%
Refreshingly normal 89.9%
You are 68.8% pure
Average Score: 72.6%

Take The Ultimate Purity Test
and see how you match up!


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11/30/03 Happy Tanksgiving!!

No, that's not a typo, some of us did get tanked over Thanksgiving weekend. Well, at least, bro Aron, Chris and I did Sat night/early Sunday morning.

Well, Wednesday night I had to drive to Denison to get my new contacts, yes they're soft and they're great. I have to go back on the 26th of December to get my other pair. It's been a headache for hte past 6 months, but I finally am through with eye infections/hard contact lenses/scratched eyes that I am wearing toric lenses now. After the eye doctors appointment my parents picked me up (they met me in Denison adn took my car home) and we left for Des Moines, well, actually Carlisle to my aunts house, where she lives with her kids and her boyfriend is there most of the time. Her boyfriend made Thanksgiving dinner and it was awesome!He made something called Ozark pie, and it was so rich, it's my new favorite pie! We went back to my parent's house Thursday night. Friday and Saturday we were working on my parent's house decorating, but Saturday night/early Sunday morning was another thing.

Chris was back (he lives in Kansas now, but was one of mine and Aron's best friends in high school--yes Aron and I shared many of the same friends)and wanted to go to the bar around 12:50 a.m. Sunday morning when he and Aron got back from a party. I was like, whatever, I'll go, because you guys need a DD (THey somehow made it back from teh party by themselves.) So we go down adn Chris buys the first round--Bud Light for everyone. THen CHris is like, "Toni, you have to try a White Russian." I'm like, fine--totally forgetting that addage: Liquer before beer, you're in the clear (or-- never fear). Beer before liquer never been sicker--So I bought the second round and got a White Russian, but they ran out of milk and added more Kahluah and Vodka to make up for it. So I had like 4 oz. of Liquer on top of that beer. Well, after I finish that drink (at this point it was only like 1:30-- we had barely been there for 1/2 an hour) and I was getting giggly, I"m a happy drunk! Chris and I are laughing over stupid stuff we did in h.s. while Aron goes and uses the rest room. Aron then finishes his drink and the next thing I know is that he puts his arms around Chris and I and says: "I'm walking home." Now, we only live about 2 1/2 blocks from teh bar, but I'm not letting him walk home when he's drunk. So, Chris steals his beer and we go home, and I drive.

We get home and we're all talking and I decided to drink some water as I don't really want to become dehydrated and get a hangover. The next thing I know is that the alcohol finally hits me and the room is freaking spinning! My mom was like-- well, you idiot--that's what you get for drinking that much in an hours time. I'm just like: Whatever, and I go off to bed. NOTE: Turn off Christmas lights that are on banister when you're drunk, because they will make you sick while they're "chasing" themselves up the banister.

Anyway, I got up this morning and my mom was like: Who drove home? Aron was like: Toni did, Toni did! Mom was like: But, she was drunk. Toni says: We were all drunk, but I was the least drunk because it didn't have time to hit me until I got home. Amazingly enough, I didn't end up with a hangover or anything... just had to pee really bad when I woke up this morning.

Well, I'm getting ready for another week at the Nut house... oops mean, teaching high school.

God Bless, Toni.

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11/19/03--JUST ONE MORE WEEK! ONE MORE WEEK!

Well, I went shopping in Sioux City tonight, yes a school night, because we were bored and are getting paid tomorrow. Anyway, I bought some Superwoman underwear, and a movie called "The Hours," which is about a writer. Can you tell I'm an English teacher?!

Well, last night I had no Internet service, and it about killed me. I missed the DB Chat Attack. And then I decided to go ahead and check my email tonight before we left, right? Well, I logged into MSN Messenger and saw the following name Online:

I was so poor growing up...if I wasn't a boy, I'd have had nothing to play with!

I just sat there and prayed... please don't let that be one of my brothers... please don't let that be one of my...D'OH! It's Brother #2, Aron! Why me? I have grown up in the most perverted family ever, I swear.

Gonna go, gotta write some exams... Toodaloo! Toni Diane :)


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11-16-03 Please, God, just eight more days...

Just eight more school days until Thanksgiving break! Yeeha! I can't wait! I've been under a lot of stress lately, first P/T conferences, then my whole last weekend, then my new contacts didn't come in, then som stress at school that I can't talk about on here!

And now, because of all this stess, my heart has decided to palpitate every once in a while! I need a fun break!

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11-09-03 Mom's birthday!

It's been one hell of a weekend. We had a 3 day weekend b/c we had a comp. day on Friday since we held parent teacher conferences Monday and Tuesday night (that's why I haven't posted!)This is incredibly long and I didn't even post all of it!

I intended to go and spend only half of my life savings on a bed so that my ankle won't hurt quite so bad at night b/c I won't toss and turn all the time.

Well, it didn't work out quite like that.

On Friday Mom and Evan had the flu, so Dad and I went to Sioux City and met up with Aron so I could buy a bed. No problems, right? I knew what I wanted, but it turns out that my antique bed frame isn't the right size!!! So once we got it to Marcus we found that out. I was so pissed! But I'm living with it--Dad's going to rig something up for the bed.

Then on Saturday I thought I was just going to go and get my contacts and the eye doctor would check me out. BUT NOOOOO.... See, I haven't been wearing my right contact for about a week or two because it irritated my eye, and I thought it was just because the contact (I wore hard contacts) was the wrong size...EEEEENNHHHHH. Wrong Answer.

The correct answer would be because I scratched my cornea and it became infected. I found this out Saturday morning when I coudldn't get the damn new contact in my eye w/o my eye being in acute pain. So the eye doctor took a look at my eye and after dialating it and dying it about 5 times he found the scrath. He then put a soft contact on it to protect the cornea and I had to put eye drops in evey 1/2 hour. (I had never worn a soft contact before, it was soooo nice!)He told me I probably wouldn't be able to wear hard lenses again, and I told him fine. I don't care about the cost, I WANT SOFT LENSES NOW! I then had to go back the the eye dr. today (he was nice enough to drive the 50 miles to the office this morning) to get the contact taken out and see if the scratch had healed some. And it had. So now, just drops 4 times a day. But dude, those new contacts I'm going to get are going to be costly...

On Saturday night I had the pleasure of almost being sat on by a drunk guy who decided to sit in the pew with Mom, Dad, bro Aron and I. He reeked of whisky and was loud and annoying. He was also cussing in church. One time after he sneezed about 6 times I saw him stick his finger on the floor and feel his pile of mucus. Thank goodness I had to go and put eye drops in my eye at that time, I didn't want to know if he put that finger in his mouth or not. I just wanted away from him. B/c I went to put the drops in, Aron ended up sitting next to him. To make a long story short. Aron had to pull his hand away from the drunk guy after "Our Father" and then had to avoid being kissed by the drunkard during the peace offereing. Ah... being Roman Catholic!

Then we're to today. I did go back to the eye doctor. And, he is kinda cute, but married, so it was nice to see him. Then I decided it was time to come back to where I live and leave my parents house. Well, I tried anyway. My Grand Prix broke down. I made it to Rickettes (about 4 miles away) when I heard thumping from my tires. At first I thought I had hit something, but it was happeing with each rotation. I had my cell with me so I called home and they said check the lug nuts, and I did, but they were'nt loose. So we took the car back home and Dad jacked it up to see what was wrong with it. The wheel bearing is coming off, so I am now driving my parent's Buick. It sucks compared to my sports car. It really really really really sucks.Plus it's going to cost up the ying yang.

What a craptacular weekend!


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10/28/03 9:27 p.m. Okay. Grades are in!

I am sooooo intensely happy right now! I'm all giggly and happy right now. And probably will be until 8:25 a.m. tomorrow...when school starts.

I was thinking last night (between grading papers) would my 15 year old self be mad at me right now for the choices I have made?

I mean, Is this where I evisioned myself to at age 23? No, it's definitely not.

Would I be embarrassed that all of those big dreams I've had are not happening?

Would I be ashamed that I haven't chased my dream, but instead chose to stay close to home, because I was scared?

Would I be disappointed to know that I'm still chubby?

Or that I still have an attitude sometimes, yet am a very cheery, almost too nice of a person.

Would I be disappointed to know all of this?

Probably yes, and no. I woudln't want to go through all of hte pain I've endured the past 8 years again. Yet, do I wish I could go back and feel so alive again? Yes! Everyday! I miss knowing that the whole world is ahead of me, and that I am invincible.

I now know that I'm not invincible.

But, I do know that I do have the whole world ahead of me, and that I can still do everything I wanted to do as a 15-year-old chubby brunette.


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10/23/03 9:20 p.m. Early post, I know, but I have to grade (end of quarter is tmw) and wait for a phone call. Note: Phone call has to do with the CCD Youth Rally I'm supervising, not a guy :(

I quit teaching confirmation last night. They pissed me off, so then the lady in charge was like... hey wanna take the 11th and 12th graders, and I was like, "Sure will, cuz I'm a sucker for kids!" So I am still teaching CCD, but a more mature group.

O.K. so I figured out the name of the condition I have; Chronic Rhinitis with Post Nasal Drip. It sounds icky, I know, but at least there's a name for it!

I need to find a new, good book. I can't find one. I need to go and exercise some more, and hopefully Amy will be there so I can find out about new exercises and some diets.

Good night and God Bless, Toni.


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10/21/03 11:10 p.m. Wow! What a week thus far and it's only Tuesday!

I went back to the doctor today, and for once it wasn't for my stress fracture! I went for my allergies. I have a condition where my nose dries up and all of the liquid from my nasal cavaties drains into my throat and bronchial tubes (the ones to the lungs--so I get athsma like breathing.) So, today they had to put me back on Flonase, while still taking my Clarinex, plus I have to inhale nasal saline every two hours. I also have to drink 64+ oz. of water a day! A DAY! I'm not going to be able to make it through class w/o running to the rest room! I usually only drink about 4-6 glasses a day, but 8+.. wow! Additionally, I need to sleep. I've been getting 6-7 (which is way more than normal for me) but she said I should get more b/c my meds will wear me out. If my allergies get worse they will put me on antibiotics to make sure a virus hasn't invaded my body. I was given the choice today, but I chose to wait until later, in case I get better.

As far as my ankle, I found out that I had ligment damage as well. Great. I guess I can count on arthritis after all.

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10/13/03 I have NEVER had a hangover last this long. I feel like my stomach is still doing flip-flops, but that may be because I decided to have Mexcian food for supper... I'm gonna go read b/c it's flippin' cold and I'm tired. On a side note, I sent my first student to the office today.


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10/12/03 Long time no see.

My nose is all stuffy, I think I have a cold, or else my hangover is getting worse. Yes, I said hangover. I am feeling not so good right now. You see, I haven't really been able to drink for awhile (ankle stress fracture-- which still hurts) and last night at Tiff and Ryan's wedding I drank 7 Bud Lights, champagne and some Captain and Coke in about a 3 hour period. This is the first time I have ever been so blinding drunk that I have lapses in my memories. I just have blanks for half of the night. And I've been told that I did some freaky stuff! I named Ted a car god, and for some reason signed a piece of paper stating that I was going to do some crazy ass stuff. Dude! Evan has the piece of paper and I need to get it back!

Leah's bf is a fucking retard and I don't like him.

Good night and God Bless, Toni.


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10/08/03 Lets see... what's happened lately?

I can't really think of much that's going on. I'm tried. I'm really disliking school b/c of the atmosphere of the administration and the like. Some kids are being rediculously stupid, and trying to anger me constantly.

I DID GET MY GUITAR TODAY! I'm going to start learning how to play actual stuff soon! Yay! Exercising is going great! I love it!

Tonight for CCD we had a program on abortion. I USED to be leaning towards the side of Pro-Abortion, but now I'm definitely Pro-Life. I saw an aborted baby. I saw where they put the aborted baby. I saw what a fetus looks like at 12 weeks--not much different from 30 weeks--not much different from full term of 40 weeks. I now know why my Catholic faith has lead me to be a CCD teacher. My class already came up to me and asked to have a discussion on abortion. The only problem is that they think I know everything about it, when I obviously don't! I DO HAVE TO ADD that the most appaling portion of the program involved comparing hte number of babies that died on Sept. 11, 2001 to that of who died in the Terrorist Bombings-- 4,000 babies to 3,500 civilians. OH AND GET THIS-- they had an illustration done in this ratio---- 1 red body: 25,000 persons. This ratio was used for all of hte wars in US history (up to the Vietnam conflict.) Lets just say all of hte wars took only 3/4 of a page, where as the abortion PAGES took like 15-20 feet oustreached, and it was on like 11 pages. THAT MANY MILLION CHILDREN HAVE DIED DUE TO ABORTION-- THAT'S MORE THAN ALL OF THE WARS IN US HISTORY!

Good night and God Bless, Toni.


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10/05/03 9:50 p.m. Ah... beer, a nice cold Bud Light is running through my veins. lol It's the first beer I've had since before I hurt my ankle a month ago! No more pain meds for me!

I went to school, but on the way stopped to help Leah put on storm windows (I did mine a couple of weeks ago.) Well, the Japanese Beetles were out in full force today along with black bugs which bite. ew... it was so bad trying to get those windows on when your arms are stinging and you have bites all over. Plus the beetles smell bad. It was very nice out today, around 80, but I wonder how long the Indian Summer will last. It makes me wonder what kind of winter we're going to have if it's still this warm in October.

BTW I have the photo gallery up (the link is at the bottom of the page.)

I think I'll go and write some tonight. Good night and God Bless, Toni.

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10/04/03 11:35 p.m. Dude. What. A. Day!

There's a really cool song on the radio right now, it's called "What Was I Thinin'" by Dierks Bentley. It's so funny! I have his CD, and it's great. I recommend everyone who likes country or blue grass (like yours truly) should get it a.s.a.p.!

Anyway, back to my day. Leah and I headed to Sioux City today to look for dresses for Tiff & Ryan's wedding. And guess what we came back with? NAVAL RINGS. Yes, as in, I now have a hole in my belly button. Needless to say, we didn't get the dresses--in fact--there's a whole story as to why.

I have no problem seeing blood, but then again I am a Class A clutz, so I see it a lot. Leah, on the other hand, doesn't do blood well. We got our navals pierced then the next thing I know is that as she's drving down 4th St. in Sioux City (towards Pierce) she's like, I'm feeling light headed, you have to drive. As soon as she got into the passengers seat she freaking passed out on me! She started to wave hands in the air and make funny noises. About a minute later she came to and we waited in a loading lane until she felt good enough to move again. I had to drive the rest of hte day, but she has an SUV so that was cool. We got to the mall fine, but she felt ill, so I had to pull over so she could puke. Then some stupid people decided to park behind us (I was parked illegally--when someone says they have to puke you PULL over!) and instead of being hte nice Christian person I am I didn't didn't tell them to move b/c they weren't in a parking spot. Instead, I was more worried that Leah was going to puke and then pass out again.

Eventually we made it into the mall and ate at Garfield's where she puked somemore. But we didn't shop long b/c she wasn't feeling well.

The only thing I really told her was taht she's lucky I have a strong stomach. Other friends would not have watched you puke and pass out without freaking out. She then had the guts to call me later tonight and yell at me because I called Leah's boyfriend) and told him to call her later on to makes sure she was ok. Which, he actually did, considering he is a pompass jerk.)

I'm really tired so I think I'll hit the hay. I'll be spending part of tmw at school-- Good night and God Bless, Toni.


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10/04/03 12:50 a.m. HOMECOMING IS OFFICIALLY OVER! I just finished chaperoning the homecoming dance, and all that's left is cleaning up Sunday evening! Yeah!

It's been a long couple of days. Wednesday I had to go and get supplies and teach confirmation. Thursday night I got back from school at 10:00 p.m. I'm not kidding either. We decorated the entire school and had coronation. I had to give a speech about the cheerleaders and then be in the faculty skit. The faculty gave a TOP 10 LIST of reasons why we'll win homecoming. Mine was #9 and I had to say "Because our cheerleaders have hte best nails in district 1!" It was lame, but oh well!

Friday morning the cheerleaders put on the annual breakfast for the football players, faculty and senior X-Country, and volleyball players. We had to be at the school by 7 a.m. Now, did you stop to realize taht we didn't get home until 10:00 p.m. the night before!

See why it's been a long week!

We did win the game and the dance was ok. There was a lot of PDA (public display of affection) going on, so we had to continually monitor the floor. This really wasn't different for me bacuse I"m usually dancing on the floor with the kids anyway. I did learn a new dance though, and it has the cha cha in it.

Well, I think I'll check email then hit the hay! Good night & God Bless, Toni


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09/30/03 Dude, am I ever tired.

ANKLE UPDATE: Sore, but getting better! It gets really sore when it's exposed to cold air, and if I exercise really hard, but it's getting better. I have been doing my strength training on it, and hope it will be as good as new in a couple months. :)

It's homecoming week, which for teachers is one hellacious week because the kids are wound up, and with the little "problem" at school it's just making it worse.

Due to the "problem" at school, I went and bought some mace tonight so I will always be safe from the person(s) involved in the incident. I know what I'm doing is right, and I refuse to become a victim. I also have not been sleeping at night since the "problem" began, so I bought some "Simply Sleep" from the makers of Tylenol (c), which should get me more than 3 hours of sleep tonight. Sweet.

Leah and I dressed up as twins today for homecoming. It was fun! We wore khakis, sketchers, ankle socks, and our plaid red buttonup shirts. It was a blast when we were standing next to each other because it was soooo evident!

Good night and God Bless--Toni


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09/29/03--It's been a long weekend!

On Saturday a friend from college came up and he went to the Minnesota Renaissance Festival with me and my British Literature class, plus a chaperone. We stayed in a hotel and had a little bit of fun, but really it was a lot of giggling.

The fair was not quite as fun as what it was in August. Maybe because I had just been there, but I think it's because it was so freaking cold! Dude, I was a FFRRREEEEZZING! Even after the football game Friday night, I thought I would be better, but I had my cheer coach jaket on and gloves and a headband earmuff thing-a-ma-bob.

Not much else going on. I'm not worried about my job at all right now. I've promised the rest of the faculty not to leave based on what's going on, and they promised to back me 100%.

Today was long, dude! I didn't get much sleep Saturday night, because the girls kept me up (and we found out that we all talk in our sleep.) Then last night after the four and a half hour drive I got back to Marcus around 7:30 and talked to Leah until like 11:30 or 12. Then I crashed on my bed, and 6:00 a.m. came WAY too early!

Speaking of talking in your sleep, apparently, I talk in my sleep. The girls said I was giving a lecture, asking questions and making lesson plans. FUNNY! They, on the other hand, were talking about the wierdest things, such as taking dogs for walks, going to wierd places, etc.

Not much else to add, other than I went to my youngest brothers football game tonight and they lost, but I got a picture with him.

Good night, and God Bless--Toni


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09/26/03 11:57 p.m. I'm getting smarter. I tried to post the 09/26 message earlier and it froze up on me again, and the page closed. I remembered to copy the text before I saved. Dude! I'm learnin'!

09/26/03 11:20 p.m. I'm doing better today. The thing I was worried about getting fired for, I'm not so concerned with now. I'll just keep it at that for right now, but please keep me in your prayers.

I just got back from a football game with my cheerleaders.We won! They were so funny tonight! One of the girls fell on her butt as she went to do a kick! We all just laughed it off. I'm in a better smiling mood today! It was so funny after I got done taking to the superintendent in his office, the secretary came up and gave me a hug and said "You're all smiles, I'm proud of you. If I had to go in there and have the door closed, I'd be scared." Yeah, it just proves I do have some guts. But not many, I make the principal go with me! :)

Well, my British Lit. class is supposed to be going to the Renaissance festival in MN. I have a hotel rented for us, and hopefully my best friend from college can come and be the male chaperone. I need to call him back yet tonight.

Well, take care and God Bless! Toni


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09/25/03 I'm crying...still. I'm doing something that is right in my mind, but I might get fired for it.

Please pray for me.

I want to talk about it, but can't on here. If you want to know, Email me.

Thank you, and God Bless, Toni

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09/24/03 I am a glutton for punishment.

I just agreed to teach Catholic confirmation classes for the rest of the year. Yes, Leah and I are gluttons for punishment. So, those sophomores get to see our two bueatiful smiling faces 6 times or more per week. At CCD tonight we also agreed to go to the Youth Rally on Oct. 26th and to take the CCD Teacher's Class in Remsen on the 22nd.

Midterm at public school was today and I didn't go to bed last night until 2:05 a.m. I was up writing exams and grading and just couldn't sleep. I kept on thinking about that one student situation. So, today I talked to the counselor and decided that it's time to do something, so I talked to the student. I told the student that I'm available to him or her whenever needed. The student has my phone numbers and will call if any problems arise, which makes me feel much better tonight.

We went to look at guitars tonight at the pawn shop in LeMars. Leah was looking at a bass for her guitar collection and I'm planning to start off on an acoustic. I was told I might be able to get a left-handed guitar for around $150. Not too shabby! So, cross your fingers I can get some more information when I check back with the guy tomorrow.

I haven't taken my shower yet, so I'm going to do that, listen to music, probably write some, and maybe go to bed.

Just kidding, I will go to bed! Early, too, I swear! Good night & God Bless, Toni.

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09/23/03 9:34 p.m. Today was a good day! I was back to my all smiles attitude! Yay! The kids were much happier and so was I!

Not much happened in school, other than I met with principal and he and I agreed to get together about every three weeks to work on my portfolio to get my next teaching license. I also have to work on getting my masters degree papers in. So much work! Plus, tomorrow is midterm at school so I have grades due. Which means I'm procrasinating as I also have two tests to write, prepare for pictures tomorrow and grade, grade, grade! I LOVE IT! lol.

I went to get some more Clarinex (allergy meds) today, under the new insurance. Oh, my, goodness. $30 for thirty days worth of pills! I must have had a funny look on my face because the lady said, "Well, atleast it's not the $80 you would have to pay if you didn't have insurance." I was like, "Dude, I don't think so. I would then be suffering on Bendaryl for $5, even though it vacuums, and I feel awful on it." I then thought about how lucky I am to have my job, and realize taht I have a deductible on meds.

As everyone has probably noticed by now, the lady bugs are invading, which means that it's about to get VERY COLD OUT! Oh, my goodness, after spending part of the summer in Texas, Iowa feels cold!

Good night, God Bless -- Toni

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09/22/03 9:12 p.m. My poor students. They knew I was in a bad mood to begin with this morning (see last nights post), and boy did I let them have it. I'm feeling a little sorry after today. I might actually have to get some candy for them... OOPS!

Leah and I were bad today! We came back from LeMars and I was like, "Dude! There's still pizza in the 'fridge up at school." So we went up and stole the pizza out of the teacher's lounge (while a board meeting was going on in the library) and ate it. It was THE WORST pizza I've ever had,hard and dry, but hey, I didn't have to pay for it, and it would have been thrown out tomorrow anyway. We were good though, we chased it down with Kool Aid (TM) instead of beer!

I really liked my hair today! It was nice and soft and the shorter layers are easier to straighten in the morning. Damn those waves! No, I was almost in tears after it was cut on Saturday, but I actually like it.

Ankle Update: Sore, but walkable. I'm wearing the ace bandage to bed, and the gel brace to school. Today I actually wore a nice blue skirt, so everyone could see the brace, but hey, they all know I have it, so it's no big deal.

4 days until the weekend!

Good night and God Bless, Toni

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09/21/03 I am not in a good mood today. I was doing fine until I went to school and did some grading of writing journals. I can't go into the details due to legal matters, but let's just say that I can't beleive what some of my students go through with thier families. It just torques me off to see how some people treat others, and that they *THINK* they have the freaking right to do it. Ugh. The nerve of some people.

Sometimes I forget how lucky I was to grow up in a nice, for the most part, loving family.

Here's my daily ankle update...I love these, lol...To be honest, it's quite sore. I know that I am able to go back to exercising and running and the like, but I think I shouldn't have hit it so hard yesterday. I think I would have been fine had I just worked out and not played volleyball at FCA, but I am just so happy to be active again, that I really don't care. I'll probably try and take it easy for the rest of tonight and then go to the gym tomorrow night.

Well, tomorrow Leah and I are going to go and look for a guitar. She has one, and Chris has one, so I'm the only second year teacher without one, so we're going to go looking.

BTW, it's Banned Books Week. Read a book that was once banned.

My Longorns are in the top 15, yay!

Good night, and God Bless, Toni


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09/20/03 11:40 p.m.

I'm tired. I stayed up late last night to read, and woke up early this morning. I did manage to get to the gym before it closed, my hair cut (again! This is twice in six weeks!), and made it to church for the blessing of the catechist. Plus, we had a home football game tonight and FCA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes.) I left FCA early because I"m tired and now I'm writing here. How lucky for me!

For some stupid reason my sophomore boys think I'm pregnant. They keep on asking me what I'm going to name my baby. I think it's because my clothes have become a little bit baggy on me, but I"m not sure...they're just being stupid. Anyway, I'm not. There is no way, no how, I could be, so I just try to ignore them. I mean, c'mon I'm not even dating anyone right now!

I should go read and finish that book and take out my contacts. Good night and God Bless!

Toni


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09/19/03 Ok, we all know my HTML is very limited, so please bear with me as I relearn how to code my website. Life is finally starting to speed up some more! But, I have this Friday night off from coaching cheerleading because the game is tomorrow night for some reason. I'm not going to complain, it's nice to have a Friday off, since I know where I'll be for the next 7 or so!

Ok, It's official, I WILL post those new songs I wrote on the other page, but PLEASE BE KIND-- I have feelings you know! I think that's what makes me so scared to show what I write, and the main reason I haven't really moved anywhere or done anything to get my songs out there and noticed. I'm hoping to buy a guitar from the pawn shop in Le Mars, though.

Oh! I am incredibly excited! I got to start exercising again last night and today, and I'm going to the gym again tomorrow! My ankle is a little sore right now, but hey, I'll live with it since I can get up and move around again! I do have to leave the gel brace on for another week, and for the rest of my life when I exercise, but if it keeps the pain away, why not?! Mom figures I will have arthritis in it b/c it hurt yesterday at the meeting, but I think it was just sympathy pain for her arthritis.

Well, I think I'll go and work on the songs and putting them onto the other page! :) Good night and God Bless! Toni

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09/17/03 10:38 I just lost my update. Crap. Anyway, I'm sooooo sorry I haven't updated for awhile. You would think with my bummed ankle I would have more time for this, but alas, I don't, because for some odd reason I've been writing in my hand writing journal.

It's been a long two weeks! I can't do steps, I can't run, I can't jump, I can't workout, I can't walk far, I can't, I can't, I can't! I keep hearing those words over and over again! I just want to be able to get up and do stuff again! I still have no idea how I sprained my ankle so bad, but they really think I have a stress fracture that didn't show up on X-rays (which by the way, for those of you who know my and know I'm a Class A clutz, those were my first set of non-dental X-Rays, and first trip to hospital, even though I was never admitted to the hospital b/c the ARNP sent me there after our little visit.) Now, I know that if I had gone when the sprain occured, and not waited one week, I would have healed faster. I am excited though, because tomorrow is the last day I have to wear both the ace wrap and the ankle brace. On Friday I go back to just the gel brace, which I will have to wear for 1-2 more weeks and for the rest of my life when I exercise.

I've been writing more songs and poems over the last couple of weeks. I have many that I'm very proud of, but still don't want to share them here yet. I get very nervous about my writing, because it's so personal to me and if people hate it, I think that they hate me. Maybe I'll post it on the other site for those who really want to read it.

Well, I was rounded into teaching CCD for 5 weeks, and tonight was my first night. I was with the same group that I have at school, so we really didn't have much to go over as far as rules and the like. I really like being able to talk about God, Jesus and Mary in the classroom. It's refresing to hear how students relate to thier religion, also! I loved it! I can't wait for next week!

Do you know what I learned today? I really like using exclamation marks when I write here, in my journal and to other people. I wonder why?!

Anywho, I should get ready for bed-- mentor meeting tmw!

Good night, and God Bless,

Toni

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07/31/03 Ok, I'm back in business. For those of you who don't know, I forgot my battery charger at my parents house and couldn't use my laptop up in Marcus without it!

A WALK DOWN MEMORY LANE

Ok, so I've been thinking about the 5 years since leaving high school. What were the good/funny/embarrassing things that happened in high school? Here's a short list, let me know what ones you think of...

1.) The guys constantly dropping thier pants whenever Tonya and I walked into a room.

2.) O.M.

3.) Being accused of ARSON-- So not funny

4.) Raingutternose

5.) Naked Tree Lady movie and my friends making me walk outside after the movie, by myself at Chris' house, next to a field.

6.) When I had to turn in people on the pep bus for smoking or risk losing my friends and my job as head cheerleader.

7.) Making cookies at Cheerleader bakeoffs-- you don't even want to know how often we licked our fingers when we made those.

8.)Community Theater when I played the very german Elsa and had to use an accent.

MORE TO COME, BUT MOM IS BUGGING ME TO GO PLAY BADMINTON at 7:31 p.m...... back at 9:03 p.m.

9.) ANNIE ANNIE... I got to put a mouse down Louise's shirt when our school did Annie.

10.) When Aron, Chris, Jesse and Luke thought it would be funny to watch me ZAP A GAP my fingers together at O.M.

11.) Email me some more of them and I will put them up.


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